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2017 in review, belatedly
Wednesday, January 10th, 2018 12:44 pmLife keeps happening at me and I feel like I'm behind it at least half the time. But I'll try to get some broad strokes of the last year down.
I'm doing traditional monthly highlights format, 'cause I've enjoyed it more than most normal end of year formats.
( The nitty gritty in month-by-month format )
This year was largely shaped by all the changes of moving out of my living situation for so many years. There were a lot of sort of new experiences, and some of it was great and some of it was lonely, but on the whole I'm definitely not complaining. Though there's definitely something about living by myself that seems to just cause the thought of "if I die, no one will ever find me" to run through my head totally unhelpfully at the most random times.
I think my main lesson from this year is that I need to be more proactive about seeing people and setting up social time. And I'm definitely not any good at that, so some of it may just be "if it looks like you'll have spare time, go sign up for a class somewhere" or something like that. Because I will get extremely frustrated if I'm underscheduled, and I continually forget that's as much of a problem as being overscheduled. I guess it's a nice change of pace, though?
Also, I feel so, so grateful that I have the capability and resources to take vacations at my current job, and it felt so relaxing, restorative, low pressure... It was fantastic, and there have definitely been way more years in my working life than not where the type of time I took for myself would just not have been possible.
I did some amount of activist things in this year, but like, countable on one hand. Definitely many, many other people I know were much better about doing this consistently, and I should step up. I often feel unknowledgeable/incompetent/afraid of being alone, and have generally not done as well as I want to because of those feelings, but if you're thinking of going to something local and want company, please feel free to ask me, because it'd help me be better about this, and I want to support people more than I have been.
2017 was definitely not a year I appreciated for its global impact, but in a personal sphere I feel like I came out of it more or less doing well. I'm trying to have hopes for 2018, but am feeling really cynical about it, which honestly serves no one. I guess I can hope the world positively surprises me and that's about the best I can do right now.
Also... every year looking back on what I focus on, it seems like work is just a huge part of my life and my thoughts, and I don't know if that's normal or not. I definitely think I get a lot of identity from work, and prioritize it really, really highly in terms of time and effort, while simultaneously constantly wondering if I'm actually slacking off, which is probably objectively ridiculous, but in my head is a real concern. Is life like this for other people? /: Luckily I don't resent it, particularly in my current job, so I guess it's okay?
Anyhow. So that was my 2017, sort of. Only 10 days late.
I'm doing traditional monthly highlights format, 'cause I've enjoyed it more than most normal end of year formats.
( The nitty gritty in month-by-month format )
This year was largely shaped by all the changes of moving out of my living situation for so many years. There were a lot of sort of new experiences, and some of it was great and some of it was lonely, but on the whole I'm definitely not complaining. Though there's definitely something about living by myself that seems to just cause the thought of "if I die, no one will ever find me" to run through my head totally unhelpfully at the most random times.
I think my main lesson from this year is that I need to be more proactive about seeing people and setting up social time. And I'm definitely not any good at that, so some of it may just be "if it looks like you'll have spare time, go sign up for a class somewhere" or something like that. Because I will get extremely frustrated if I'm underscheduled, and I continually forget that's as much of a problem as being overscheduled. I guess it's a nice change of pace, though?
Also, I feel so, so grateful that I have the capability and resources to take vacations at my current job, and it felt so relaxing, restorative, low pressure... It was fantastic, and there have definitely been way more years in my working life than not where the type of time I took for myself would just not have been possible.
I did some amount of activist things in this year, but like, countable on one hand. Definitely many, many other people I know were much better about doing this consistently, and I should step up. I often feel unknowledgeable/incompetent/afraid of being alone, and have generally not done as well as I want to because of those feelings, but if you're thinking of going to something local and want company, please feel free to ask me, because it'd help me be better about this, and I want to support people more than I have been.
2017 was definitely not a year I appreciated for its global impact, but in a personal sphere I feel like I came out of it more or less doing well. I'm trying to have hopes for 2018, but am feeling really cynical about it, which honestly serves no one. I guess I can hope the world positively surprises me and that's about the best I can do right now.
Also... every year looking back on what I focus on, it seems like work is just a huge part of my life and my thoughts, and I don't know if that's normal or not. I definitely think I get a lot of identity from work, and prioritize it really, really highly in terms of time and effort, while simultaneously constantly wondering if I'm actually slacking off, which is probably objectively ridiculous, but in my head is a real concern. Is life like this for other people? /: Luckily I don't resent it, particularly in my current job, so I guess it's okay?
Anyhow. So that was my 2017, sort of. Only 10 days late.
